I think I have a slightly different view to the Zwift racing than you,
and my view has changed as I have used Zwift more.
Initially I only joined Zwift to avoid the bad weather, it was to keep
fit during the colder months.
After a few months I started racing on Zwift and found it fantastic
fun. In my naivety I thought that it was a level playing field. I soon
found out that was not the case. This was a disappointment to me
initially, but I changed my opinion as really Zwift was a training tool
for me, I just needed to remind myself of this.
I don’t race to win, (chance would be a fine thing) I race to push
myself, to work as hard as I can. Some of the best events I find are
the “Tour Series”, lots of riders, you have a position No. and if I can’t
stick with one group there is usually a following group not far behind,
which I like, as I don’t like being in no-mans land.
In other race events, I don’t mind racing with riders of other Cats as in my
opinion I don’t think the Cat system is quite right. C Cat riders often
beat B Cat riders etc, so I just race the group I’m in. It is still for me,
great fun. I work harder inside on a Zwift race, than I do outside, which
for me is the whole point. Keeping fit is my aim.
I hope I have given you a different way to look at your problem of
motivation. Zwift is a fantastic way to stay fit inside if you are not able to
go outside for any reason, or as a platform to improve your outside ability.
I hope you stick with Zwift.
PS I’m probably older than you so I have already realised I’m not going
to win anything.
PPS I think you may like the Hare and Hounds Races as you start and
hopefully stay in your Cat group trying as a group to catch the Cat group
ahead or avoid the Cat group behind catching you.