I am mad as ****: I am steaming! Today I raced and I can see (afterwards) that nobody did any supermanefforts, not at all. I gues I just gave up at the wrong place, it was the other hill and at the end of it. I just get this feeling that the bunch never rests. There was a cheater in the race, and that annoys the ■■■■ out of me. Because when there is one cheater it destroys the pace, and sure they get DQ on ZP but people who say that if there is a cheater “you just get a better workout” are stupid, sorry but when I am on my limit and someone is doing this I just can’t push any more!! It’s not like I just push myself a little more, I do have a limit and then it’s either being in the bunch or not being in the bunch. You know legs giving in and getting dropped?
I guess I am just whining and being a bitc* but damn this annoys me. Am I paranoid or what is the deal? How do you guys think about judging if it’s time to give in and go solo? You have no idea where the other people are effortwise, if they are tired or not I mean.
And to the guy who asked if I don’t feel joy in training, well I do! This racingthing is very new to me! I do find myself going silly on something when I have started something, I get obsessed. And I know I should race less but I just want to get better and I want to get better NOW, and then you have to race? I WANT to solve this reacingthing which I quite frankly SUCK at.
End of rant, I am not in my best form after one week of no real training because of being sick but when I even struggle on hillyraces where the other guys are doing nothing special effortwise I get frustrated.